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Posted: May 11, 2011 in thoughts


happy u let me in 🙂

Finding an inner peace is a shelter from such violently changing life, busy days and rapid rhythm of emotions we face each day.

I did meditation sessions many times before but the last few ones were different, it isn’t me alone anymore!

It became like being with her can really cure my soul, she can take off all worries weighting my houlders, and she is the only one I would let inside to explore and restore the pure state of such disturbed soul.

Yesterday I played that soft meditation album of Dan Gibson; producing natural sounds of water, waves, birds and trees. And I closed my eyes to hear the melody of her smile.

It was us alone, nobody watching except me. The night was enclosing the wide extended sea and its shore, in that magnificent majestic cloak. Sand particles were soft and cold, encouraging you to dip your toes inside and enjoy their tingling.

We were lying on our back, watching thousands of scattered shiny stars forming pearls decorating the night’s cloak. Big full moon can be seen between our flexed knees, lightening the waves that rush holding the moons messages towards our place. But they suddenly end up few yards from our feet sending the shy salutes in their last sparks of light, before going back into arms of its mother sea.

The only heard sounds are night’s holy music, giving you that shiver; the sea had something to say, some scary birds’ sounds, but all were covered by those sweet laughs and hmmmms.

We were happy, as if we managed to drop all the worries and fears into those waves withdrawn fast to the sea, now we feel the peace, no words needed but the look and smile that I slowly opened my eyes still having them.

A deep breath taken in then out, then eyes are closed again I guess I missed her presence already since I opened them.

This time we were on the same shore, but far away from the sand, we were sitting on this rock tacking advantage of that view of the full moon and its waves, but this time his messages had to be interrupted but the rock itself, 1 meter beneath our feet, we could hear its salutes in the drizzle that sometimes
manages to reach our legs.

It was cold up there, so she had my shirt on, and we were staying close with my arms around her shoulders. I was getting my warmth from her smile, and I wanted to stay more.

But it was raining now we went running through the rain, letting its droplets to wash out all the days’ worries and fears, then we went into the carefully arched trees entrance of our room.

I opened my eyes slowly; I took the mobile and dialed the number. It was her voice again, this time saying hello. My only words were I need you.


m. elmahdi 30.9.2010


2007 my last year of being geek (H)

Article 24th of the universal declaration of human rights states that: everyone has the right to rest and leisure, including reasonable limitation of working hours and periodic holidays with pay”

Medical student is a human being or at least he or she used to be one when he or she first came into that

The faculty is dealing with us as granted non social Nerds who can do nothing except studying, lectures 6 days per week, exams on Fridays, and the situation gets worse when it comes to 5th and 6th years there is no summer vacation!

After full 6 years in normal prison you will have one more year of heavy work prison, they call it the house officer year; you can’t take any vacation in the first 6 months. And your salary is less that 300 LE per month!

In normal prisons they give time for sports, reading and crafts, why can’t we even have what prisoners

Our only fault is getting into the medical school! Would anybody do that in his full conscious powers?

Out of 32 friends answered my question if they knew all that before they enroll to faculty of medicine I
was surprised that 20 said yes they did! Though most of them don’t find it not acceptable they had to accept it and come in any way,, many even think holidays are extra wasted time, so they take private classes on holidays; the faculty is turning into a geeks producer instead of bringing out a doctor who can
integrate, help and develop side by side with his society.

That is the real problem; everybody should believe in his rights and how to practice them, you can’t get your rights unless you know them!

So before asking for our right of free time and regular holidays, we need to target our selves why we
need such time? We need some free time to practice our hobbies without affecting my study, communicate with the outside world or most importantly having a break between the long study days so we can continue the struggle!, we need to get a life; I guess many of us was told that before but didn’t know how?!

Our second line is to address the faculty administration for more fair leisure time and holidays, we
need practical way to have some free time I know it is difficult to arrange such crowded and heavy curriculum, but it can be done on some gradual bases.

We are not neglecting all other problems, but here I tried to put my hand on some practical practices of
our rights, and will try to discuss other problems in next articles if I had enough time!!!!

Remember Human Rights;
they can’t be deprived even with person’s will, doesn’t fall if not used, and they can’t be separated!

M. Elmahdi

11-5-2011; beginning of my first summer without any vacation!